I have not been doing too much blogging as of late. I am not exactly sure why. I think there have been many reasons. The simple answer is that I am pregnant (yes, it's true! )and I have been feeling very sick and have to admit I have been watching WAY to many episodes of Brothers & Sisters. But the real reason I haven't been blogging is that I have been struggling with whether or not is is a positive thing in mine and my families lives. I worry that I am taking my attention from my family and the present moment focusing on reporting about it. I think. who am I even writing all this for anyway. Am I trying to prove something to myself or others by highlighting all the wonderful things that go on in my house, meanwhile not mentioning all the not so pleasant ones? Or is it simply a way of appreciating all the good things in life by stopping to remember them and sharing with others? Well, After this 10 days of laying on the couch in TV land.....I came to a conclusion. Okay, know, you must be wondering where this TV came from since we got rid of all of them last year. Yes, we have been TV free and loving it, but when I am sick I do want to sit and veg out in front of it, so I have John pull out our big screen from the closet and hook up Netflix. Anyway, all that tv watching just made me realize how much I want to be in my life, not watching someone else's. I realized that what blogging does for me is helps me to stay motivated with my kids and in that present moment that can be so illusive. I find so much joy in taking pictures and capturing our moments and then writing about them, thinking about the days when John and I will sit back 20 years from now and read them and remember moments that would have been lost.. Blogging makes me a better parent because I take that extra moment to make something more special, knowing that I am going to account for it later. It's almost like I have to report back to my parenting teacher, who will grade me on it later. I wish I didn't need that, but I think it just gives me that extra shove to get up and do some really cool stuff with my kids. Being a parent has made me a better person, and I think blogging is helping me see who that person really is.